The Official Pain Section
On February 4, 1977 in the late afternoon on THE hill called Championship Hill, I was sledding with a friend. "Last run," we decided - planning to finish the day with the "greatest run ever." Tromping beside the sledding trail on the crunchy packed ice, we wound our way to the top of the hill in the woods. When we were at the trail's pinnacle, we scurried down the hill with our George Bailey-eque sleds. We dove upon the sleds while we were scurrying to get the fastest run possible. The runners that had been waxed were practically hovering across the sheer glaze at maximum speed. Tommy Seachrist was just ahead of me. The trail split left to go over a multitude of bumps or the to right which was a relatively calm trail that led about a quarter-mile down the hill to the school.
Our intent was to go right. Tommy made the turn easily. I however, wobbled a bit and couldn't get the steering to agree with my directional intent. A tree and I met in a most unfortunate way for me. The tree sustained some chipped bark. About 5 years later, I checked on the tree and it was fine but there was an evident scar. At the five year mark, I too was fine for the most part as well.
Regrettably, immediately after striking the tree, I knew something was drastically wrong. I had incredible difficulty breathing and could barely stand up. Tommy turned his head to see if I was going to overtake him, but he saw me staggering to stand. He dragged his feet into the crusty snow and carried his sled back up the hill to find out the cause of the delay. Gasping for air, I told Tommy I was really hurt. At first he didn't believe me. For some reason, he later did. I can only suppose it was the alabaster color I became.
Not knowing exactly what to do, I told Tommy I needed help getting to nearest house. Tommy helped to tend to his wounded comrade with great care. I held onto his shoulders as he walked, my weary legs trying to keep up with his stride. We approached the house and fortunately, the professional office in the home was open - a veterinary office. A quick diagnosis and a phone call to my mother, led me to the hospital for evaluation.
10 days later after emergency surgery to remove a lacerated lobe from my liver, I was sent home as a Valentine's Day present to all my family and friends. It was a tough 8 weeks, not being permitted to do any physical activity, per my surgeon's orders. (Please don't tell my mother, but I did sit and ride on a skateboard down Dan West's neighbor's driveway about 6 weeks after surgery.)
The ordeal was traumatic. For about 7 or 8 years, I've come to realize, I had a type of PTSD related to the accident. I would relive the accident in daydreams and nightmares. In these episodes, my peripheral vision would become shallow and everything sounded as if I were in a tunnel. I specifically remember in 9th grade biology class with Miss Wheeler, sitting next to Ana Ramos, and I had an episode. It was the first episode I had in public and I knew it was happening but couldn't stop it. It lasted for less than a minute and for just a moment, it felt as if the world now knew of my episodes. I looked around the room and realized no one knew this happened. It was my own experience and no one else's experience. I have never written nor do I believe I ever told anyone about my episodes before seeing them now before me.
The internal scar tissue would continue to nag me for approximately 18 years. I recall being surprised in my late twenties when the scar tissue got caught on my lowest fixed rib. It was a bit startling because the last "hooking" hadn't occurred for approximately two years. Since then, the only issue I have with my liver is when I get MRIs or X-rays and need to explain the staples on the images to technicians and doctors.
In 1978, I wore a back brace for months and was called Frankenstein. Even as a kid, I was always had back pain. My mother for a while thought I was mimicking my father's pain, but mine was lumbar and his was always a thoracic issue. After the months of bracing, the orthopedic doctors determined that I was born with a vertebrae out of place, thus shifting my hips backwards and my stomach forward. I say that as a result I have a Jennifer Lopez butt and a Kevin James gut. I have the best of the best related to the Hollywood types. Unfortunately, this malformation causes persistent nagging and sometimes excruciating pain. It also likely was the impetus for other injuries that I have sustained including 5 knee surgeries due to the maligned hips.
In 1991 while body surfing in a rip tide in Ocean City, Maryland, I was hurled into a little ball and landed on my head, garnering a concussion and a sore neck. That sore neck turned out to be a bit more than a strain. An MRI showed a hook-like chunk of disc cartilage compressed against my spinal cord. Like my back, ever since then I have had persistent and sometimes excruciating pain, that will cause tears to roll down my cheeks.
When I decided to set off for my cross country bike journey, I hoped with all my heart and soul as I left Dog Beach in San Diego, that I would be able to complete the journey with ease. As time went on, the massages, chiropractic visits weren't able to alleviate or repair the constant strains on my knees, neck, back and a new pain in my right hip. Also, the numb left leg and left arm got old along with the raw nose from blowing snot rockets in the cold got to be too much.
Although the camping portion of my cycling journey is complete, there are more blogs and journeys to come. Different modes of transportation will be used and my blog, I don't believe will be any less interesting. Well, I'll certainly do my best for you my dear reader.
The Official Kind Word Section
There are times in our lives when certain things said to us stick in our minds. Unfortunately, some are negative, but sometimes, the kindest words are said that make us feel amazing. Along my journey, I have received especially kind words of support for my journey and support for me as a person. Some of these words I'll share with you. One person's words I believe I should share with you again. It made me feel amazing and made me cry because the words moved me so much. Yes, I cry for joy, pain and sorrow. I am unashamed of this fact. If you think differently that's your cross to bear.
I'm glad to help you adventurous types – you know how to live. And then I read your blog about the guy who died living. Incredible! Why don't I remember you like this at all? You're like a gift that was put in a closet because it's valuable but not immediately necessary. Then I find it, and it's amazing and worth the revealed. Please be safe. But I know you will do this well - KV
Although I don't know you well, I am in awe of this amazing opportunity you have taken. I have been following your blog and love the awesome photo's and stories. It is very cool since these are places I will probably never see, and am so intrigued as to what other parts of the country/world look like and how people live there. You are a great writer and I glad you have found company to travel with you. Karma is a beautiful dog and I am sure a loving companion. - TK
You are the sweetest Tim! You & your kind should daily remind me that it's always more important to give than receive. - JC
It was delightful sharing Christmas dinner with you. You have challenged my thoughts and am re-evaluating some priorities.
I am glad our paths crossed. One thing that captured my core thoughts about meeting you, involved the first few minutes of our conversation. You were completely open, unguarded in meeting a new person. You were not closed off or pushy about your mission, but rather engaging (which my guess is your personality in general). You were open to the opportunity that was in the moment, meeting someone new without any expectations or strings. Just being friendly, but seemingly genuinely interested. While I tend to be a really friendly person, it stops at my agenda in that I am only open to what fits into my plans, not what I may get to experience in chatting with the other person. Even when you met Granny, and Nikki, you had an ease and openness that communicated interest. That has stuck with me. - AS
You are far deeper than you let on, Sir Tim. I really admire and respect that. - JK
You are the greatest. You seriously are one hell of a nice guy. - DRZ
Good Luck and keep in touch. There are very few people from my end of the business I enjoy spending time with, and you fall into the small group. - SC
Regarding Karma - email sent to me by Special K's former owner Nick
The day I had to call Sally to help me find a solution for Karma (as you know she could not be alone at all) was one of the darkest days of my life. I am so happy her journey allows her to touch as many people and other animals as possible.
Thank you for your kindness towards both of my girls (Sally and Karma), I look forward to meeting you when you come over to the east coast. - NG
Thoughts
No doubt staying focused on the positive is critical. If you ever hear me complaining about my existence, please point me back to the messages. We all need to keep that in mind and eliminate the other superficial negative nonsense that tries to crowd into our heads. It is superfluous noise merely meant as a distraction.
Photographs
Unfortunately, there is nothing I have really found that is special to photograph in this town. The closest thing I could find was an extremely small wild flower in the courtyard of the hotel that unfortunately was so small it was impossible to capture it well with my small camera. This was one of only a few times I wish I had my SLR camera on the trip...I decided to post the photo anyway to give this posting some color.
Until next time...to all of you, I wish you well and miss you. To my children, I love you, always have, and always will.